【075】How “Making a Decision” Dissolved the Anxiety That ¥200,000 Monthly Spent on Divination Couldn’t Fix｜Subconscious Mind × Love Manifestation

I wanted to reconcile, and I desperately wanted someone to tell me “it will be okay.”

To that end, I’ve spent ¥100,000 to ¥200,000 a month on divination—many of you might have had similar experiences.

Today, I’m sharing the story of M, who spent over a year on reconciliation efforts and up to ¥200,000 monthly on divination readings. After encountering the subconscious mind approach and deciding on the thought of “me, loved by my ideal partner, living a happy life,” she manifested her ideal relationship, moved in together, and met both families.

What Was Happening to M: When “What You Think Becomes Reality” Backfired in Love

In 2021, M started dating a man she met at a workplace gathering. He was a sincere person who respected her pace, saying “you don’t need to reply right away.”

But throughout their relationship, M’s mind was filled with these thoughts:

“This happiness won’t last long”
“I’ll be left behind eventually”

At ほめ♡レン, we call this the ego—not your true self, but automatic reactions arising from past experiences and fears.

Ten months later, he said, “I can’t see a future where we get married and live together,” and they broke up. M later reflected, “My belief that ‘what I think becomes reality’ was simply being applied to me.”

When the ¥200,000 Monthly Divination Habit Ended

For over a year after the breakup, M focused on reconciliation efforts. She juggled multiple services—chat divination, phone divination, love-binding rituals, healings—spending up to ¥200,000 in some months.

When asked why she went that far, M said: “I think I just wanted someone to tell me it would be okay. I was spending large amounts of money to get temporary peace of mind.”

Then came the moment when something snapped. A divination reader told her, “Go visit him every day. If you go every day, you’ll meet.”

“Do I really need to become this obsessed with him? I’m becoming a slave to reality, completely ignoring what I actually want.”

From that realization, she stopped letting external forces control her. She graduated from divination around November 2023.

Dropping “the ex I want to reconcile with” and Shifting Her Thoughts

At ほめ♡レン, which teaches subconscious love manifestation, “making a decision about what you think” is central. It’s not “how do I make it happen?” but rather “what world do I want to be in?”—and you decide that for yourself.

What M did was change the words of her intention.

“Being loved by the ex I want to reconcile with and living happily”
↓
“Being loved by my ideal partner and living happily”

She naturally began thinking, “I don’t need a guy who treats me poorly. There might be someone better, so I’ll stop clinging to this.”

She also worked on self-love. At ほめ♡レン, self-love isn’t “a method to manifest”—it’s treating yourself with care. What M did was simple: she “cherished the emotions that came to mind” and “praised herself as cute in the mirror each morning.”

Reality Shifted Within Two Weeks of Changing Her Thoughts

About two weeks after changing her thought to “being loved by my ideal partner and living happily,” a man who had transferred to her workplace and with whom she’d had little contact suddenly came close to her.

They began talking every day, and when she decided, “let’s just say we’re already dating,” reality moved rapidly.

Her current partner tells her she’s cute every day. Their hobbies and preferences align surprisingly well. They’ve decided to move in together and have already met each other’s families. “We might get married this year, but I’m not rushing,” M says.

When searching for an ideal apartment to move into, she “set the intention of ‘I can feel it—I’ll meet the perfect place’—and relaxed,” and she found a place that met almost all her conditions. The only concern she had was resolved when a cancellation opened up, giving her exactly what she wanted.

Summary: Getting “It Will Be Okay” From Yourself Is Faster Than Getting It From Others

Looking back on M’s journey, there’s one turning point.

“She stopped being controlled by reality and decided her own thoughts for herself.”

Divination isn’t bad. But the sense of security you get from having someone tell you “it will be okay” is temporary. When you decide your own thoughts for yourself, you no longer need to borrow that assurance from outside.

M’s full story is featured in detail on ほめ♡レン’s YouTube channel. Please watch the video!

📺 After spending ¥200,000 monthly on divination for reconciliation, she graduated and decided: “Being loved by my ideal partner and living happily”—and the ultimate devoted boyfriend appeared!