You Can Manifest Love Even If You’re Negative! A Journey Through 2 Years of Separation and Reunion

Introduction

“I’m absolutely, undeniably negative,” said one woman—and yet, after 2 years apart, she manifested her reconciliation.

We’re sharing the inspiring story of S, who achieved her dream of getting back together despite being overwhelmed by anxiety and worry.

If you believe that being negative prevents reconciliation, this story will give you hope.

S’s Situation: From Living Together to Breaking Up

S, a woman in her 20s, had been living with her boyfriend since their student days—a relationship spanning about 8 years.

But small arguments gradually started increasing.

・Arguments about housework when her emotions were unstable before her period
・His lack of punctuality
・Her frustration about issues that never seemed to change no matter how many times she mentioned them

When these frustrations piled up, around September 2019, S impulsively broke up with him.

At first, she felt a sense of freedom. But before six months had passed, she found herself thinking, “I absolutely want to get back together.”

And that’s when S’s painful journey began.

Anxiety and Ego So Severe It Affected Her Health

After deciding she wanted reconciliation, S found herself in an emotionally exhausting state that took a toll on her physical health.

The Struggle with Ego (Negative Thinking)

In the subconscious mind, “ego” refers to negative thoughts that react almost automatically to events in reality.

S was tormented by thoughts like these:

・She would hurt every time she passed a place with memories of him
・She would feel pain every time she saw the same car he drove
・Anxious thoughts like, “Will I ever get to go there with him again?”
・She was prone to worry and anxiety more than most people

S admits she “had developed the habit of leaving her ego unchecked. She couldn’t ignore it; she was completely identified with it.”

The Turning Point: A Decision Not to Treat Negativity as the Enemy

A major turning point came into S’s life.

It was the realization that “negative emotions aren’t a bad thing.”

“I used to believe that negative emotions were bad. When you think that way, you end up trying to use your subconscious mind despite your ego. But no matter what I did, I suffered. When I wondered why, I realized it was because I was forcing myself to do things I didn’t want to do.”

“I realized it wasn’t the ego that was wrong—it was pretending to be fine while ignoring the true voice of my heart that was the real problem.”

From this moment on, S’s relationship with her ego transformed dramatically.

A New Way of Relating to Ego

Feeling Your Emotions Fully

S stopped trying to forcefully suppress her ego when it appeared.

“I felt through all the negative images and ego that came into my mind.”

“I’d think things like, ‘I was suffering because I felt this way,’ or ‘I don’t need to force myself to do all these things.’ The moment ego appears is painful, but experiencing that pain itself isn’t wrong. So I decided to sit with it for a bit and face my ego.”

Finding Her Own Coping Methods

S discovered her own ways to handle it when her ego was overwhelming:

・Going to bed as early as possible
・Going shopping alone
・Studying music
・Doing anything she enjoyed, even just a little

And most importantly:

“For example, even if I’m thinking about it and suffering today, I might not feel like researching the subconscious mind. You know what? Not today. Today I’m just going to wallow.”

In this way, she gave herself permission to fall apart completely.

Noticing the Joy in Everyday Life

As S learned to work with her ego in a healthier way, something wonderful happened.

“Even in things unrelated to him, I started noticing small moments of happiness and everyday blessings I used to take for granted.”

Specifically:

・The fact that her family was healthy another day
・Being able to go to a nice bakery early in the morning on her day off to grab breakfast
・Feeling happy going on a solo drive on a beautiful sunny day
・Getting off work on time
・Hanging out with friends after a long time and realizing how joyful and happy it was

“At first, I was consciously looking for happiness outside of him. But gradually, searching for that happiness became enjoyable in itself.”

The Moment of Reconciliation

While living this way, S received a message from him.

He had contacted her occasionally before, but until just before the reconciliation, she hadn’t reached out to him first.

But recently, an opportunity came to connect, and he suggested, “Want to grab dinner?”

“I was really worried about facing reality or getting a sad outcome. But I decided to meet him.”

And when they met, he said:

“I broke up with my girlfriend. I still love you, so let’s try again.”

S recalls, “I had always been imagining the moment of reconciliation, so when he said that, I couldn’t tell if it was real or a dream. I remember just saying, ‘Okay, I’m going home.’”

The Happy Days After Reconciliation

After reconciling, S’s boyfriend gave her a spare key and said, “Come over whenever you want. Let’s live together next year.”

“I’ve changed 180 degrees from those days of being completely caught up in my ego. I’m so happy.”

And S shares something truly beautiful:

“The time we were apart made me realize so many things. I’m even grateful that we separated for a while.”

“We’re not the same two people as before—it feels like I’m falling in love with a different person. It feels like we’re a brand new couple, and I’m happy every single day.”

S’s Message to You

S shared this message with others who are struggling:

“I was even skeptical about whether my desire was truly reaching my subconscious mind. But I lived like this right up until the day before we reconciled, and then reality changed so easily and without warning.”

“If someone as negative as me could manifest reconciliation, then all of you can absolutely do it too. It works even if you’re negative. I’m proof of it.”

Conclusion: Reconciliation Is Possible Even If You’re Negative

From S’s experience, we can learn:

1. Don’t treat negative emotions as the enemy
2. Feel your ego fully when it appears
3. Don’t force yourself to be positive
4. Find your own coping methods
5. Pay attention to small moments of everyday happiness

Being negative doesn’t mean reconciliation is impossible.

Rather, by accepting yourself—including your negativity—you can truly start living as your authentic self.