【068】I Want to Make It Official with My Ambiguous Boyfriend——30s E’s Success Story of Trusting “I Am Loved” Through the Subconscious Mind

“He only texts the day before we meet,” “He leaves right away when we hang out,” “We barely talk”——After 1.5 years of this ambiguous relationship with a man 13 years younger, E finally entered into an official relationship. We’re sharing E’s real LINE confession story and the subconscious concept of “deciding your thoughts” in detail.

E’s Situation——”I Must Be Just Convenient to Him” for 1.5 Years

E is a woman in her 30s. She had been fondly caring for a coworker 13 years her junior as her “favorite.” When he transferred departments, the two began spending time together, and they became intimate. But after that, his communication became extremely sparse.

• He only texts “the day before we meet”
• He leaves right away when they hang out
• They just watch videos and play games with barely any conversation
• An unfamiliar girl’s name appeared on his video account
• Even when they had made plans, he’d suddenly message “I can’t make it today”

“I guess I really am just convenient to him,” “When he finds someone better, he’ll probably discard me,” “He probably prefers younger girls”——E found herself wrestling with these anxieties over and over again.

What is “Ego”——The True Reason Things Don’t Manifest

In Homéren, these reactive thought patterns like “no contact came → this is impossible” or “he was cold to me → I’m just convenient to him” are called “ego.”

Ego simply reacts semi-automatically based on past experiences and common sense—it’s not your true feelings. It’s natural for ego to appear, but when you’re taken over by ego, you drift further and further away from your true desire of “being lovey-dovey with him.”

E experienced huge waves of this “ego.” But E was remarkably skilled at handling it.

What E Continued to Do——Deciding the Thought “He Adores Me”

What E did was simple.

Whenever ego appeared, she’d notice “this is ego, not my will,” and easily switch to “he adores me, so it’s all good.”

Even when she wanted to confront him, she’d tell herself like magic: “he adores me anyway,” and showed up happy and content around him. She decided to be “a woman who brings him peace and healing whenever we’re together.”

When ego got loud, she’d play Homéren video playlists “on repeat forever.” She’d buy her favorite cosmetics, watch her favorite anime, and throw herself into her hobbies——when thoughts about him triggered ego, she’d focus on what she loved. E herself reflected, “This might be self-love.”

In Homéren, “self-love” means the foundation that makes it easier to settle into the thought “being lovey-dovey with him.” There’s nothing special about it—all the everyday actions that make you feel good become self-love.

The Meaning of “Don’t Move One Step from the Place Where It’s Already Manifested”

There’s a concept frequently discussed in Homéren: “Don’t move one step from the place where it’s already manifested.” This means that no matter how much the reality appears “not manifested,” you don’t budge from the thought “I am the version of me where this is already true.”

Even when contact didn’t come, even when he was cold, even when hints of other girls appeared——E never dropped the thought “he adores me.” For 1.5 years, she didn’t move one step from that belief.

She also had the thought “if he’s a man who doesn’t treasure me, I don’t need him.” This wasn’t attachment—it was trust in her own feelings.

The Sudden Confession——”I Didn’t Want Anyone Else to Have You”

October 2023. After going out with a friend and drinking, she received a LINE from him on the way home.

“I think I might like you, E.”
“Yeah, really. I didn’t want anyone else to have you.”

He later confessed to her in person, saying officially: “I know I’m younger and immature, but if that’s okay with you, will you be my girlfriend?”

She later learned he’d had feelings for her all along. Seeing E be friendly with other men made him think “I don’t want to lose her.”

While E stayed unwavering in the thought “I am adored,” his feelings were always there.

Summary——No Matter How Reality Looks, Only You Can Decide Your Thoughts

When you want to make an ambiguous relationship official, reality can look like it’s showing you “proof it’s not manifested.” But what E’s success story reveals is that it doesn’t matter how reality appears.

“Deciding your thoughts” is something only you can do.
Reality simply reflects that thought back to you later.

You can watch E’s full success story in this video.

📺 He was 13 years younger and our relationship was ambiguous. Even when reality showed coldness, I kept trusting “I am loved”—and then came his sudden confession making it official!